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Small Stuff...

Some people say "don't sweat the small stuff." The little things that pile up, whether they are chores, frustrations, or inadequacies. After all, just one small thing is generally not enough to really get worked up about...3110 gta vice city

One pet peeve, perhaps - like people who waltz into the house with snow-covered shoes and leave puddles all over my kitchen floor - no, I'm not naming names, since the "regulars" around here already know not to tug on my frazzled wit's end. They kindly remove their shoes at the door, and roll their eyes at my automatically telling them to do so even though I don't have to anymore. It's just an example...3110 gta vice city

Or one more thing to do, perhaps - like sitting down and going through the 8+ groups I "belong" to at this point to work out the scheduling for activities each month that I attend, mostly with/for the kids. That example also illustrates the "one more thing to attend" category as well. I've even got another moms' group lined up to possibly join next month...3110 gta vice city

Or one more thing to remember, perhaps - like the various foods that the people I occasionally cook for cannot eat or don't like for one reason or another. I always like to try and make something that everyone can enjoy...3110 gta vice city

Or one more thing to fix, perhaps - a spot of paint here, a new tile there, something leaky, something broken, something still not remodelled or repaired. Every time a toy breaks around here, my son knows to bring it to me. Somehow, mommy almost always manages to fix it...3110 gta vice city

Or one more thing to pay, perhaps - bills piling up in a basket by the door. Some recently paid, but not yet filed, others waiting for the next paycheck. There's always something (like Kayla's new car seat this time) that bumps how important it is to pay something else. While Brian's job now has us officially on the road to recovery, we are still catching up. It gets a little better each month, but still qualifies in the "small stuff" category...3110 gta vice city

Or one more box to go through - they never seem to cease. All these boxes from my mother and grandmother keep following me around, waiting for me to officially have the "time" to go through them. Boxes in storage. Boxes in the garage. Boxes in the house. There are days I just want to take a torch to those boxes. I would never do it, of course, but one day I will purge a ton of it. Whether through eBay, Freecycle, or just trash - a lot of it needs to go...3110 gta vice city

Or one more request - I too often say "yes" to things asked of me. No matter how many times I try, I'm still too damned gullible, pliable, useable...3110 gta vice city

One more pill to take, one more chore to do, one more paper to fill out, web site to visit, book to read, job to perform, note to write, errand to run...3110 gta vice city

One more "right" way to do something.3110 gta vice city

One more explanation or justification to give for not doing something the way society deems "right."3110 gta vice city

One more person to appease other than myself. One more minute I can't stop to play with my children, or watch the snow fall, or just crawl back into my bed and dream.3110 gta vice city

One more... one more... one more... Some days my head is ready to explode with all the "one more"s in my life. All the "little stuff". Too much "little stuff"...3110 gta vice city

So, if my "chores" aren't done, my "duties" not complete...3110 gta vice city

If my makeup isn't on, and my teeth weren't brushed after lunch...3110 gta vice city

If I didn't work on one of the many piles of stuff on my desk today or cross another thing off my several pages of "small stuff" written down for me to do...3110 gta vice city

Know that on Monday my son got "windows" cut into the box that he adopted from Kayla's new car seat. Today, he also learned the joy of standing up dominoes in a long row to be knocked down again. My daughter is pointing to things, clearly wanting to know the names of everything, and even trying to mimic the sounds sometimes...3110 gta vice city

Know that I did watch the snow fall recently. Brian and I sat, leaning on the back of the couch, gazing out the window while it blanketed the neighborhood. We spent that time together, just "wasting" time watching how beautiful and amazing it really is, ignoring the knowledge that we'd have to shovel it later...3110 gta vice city

Know that yesterday Jareth got to run and play with other kids while I chased a crawling Kayla, as they played at one of those "activities" I schedule in for them...3110 gta vice city

Because, frankly, if I'm not going to "sweat the small stuff" around here - then I'd damned well better get to do the good stuff too!3110 gta vice city

So, the next time you want to ask me "why didn't you..." about anything, I may not have an answer for you. I was busy doing something. Whether I was trying to take care of one of the "small" things on my list, or one of the unlisted small things that give me the joy to keep going...3110 gta vice city

In the big picture - it's all small stuff. And, at the same time, there's nothing small about any of it. Especially the good stuff. It's huge. And I simply refuse to miss it all because one more chore needs to be done.3110 gta vice city

So there. Nyah.3110 gta vice city

Oh, and there's some new pics up at the Picasa gallery. Some of the kids, and some of those dominoes I mentioned. Dragon double twelve dominoes, I might add. Dragon. Ooooh. I dubbed my ordered rows of dominoes as the Grand Army of The Dragon, lining up for battle. Then they all fell down. Doh. Not such good troops after all. I guess that's what I get for letting my soldiers fraternize in a box unnoticed for five or ten years before sending them to the front. They couldn't stay standing when faced with the hardened new technology of my Monolta Dimage. Enjoy!3110 gta vice city

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Whoah...

I want to move. Yes. Soon please.3110 gta vice city

*looks around worriedly*3110 gta vice city

Why is this? you might ask...3110 gta vice city

Because, until I'd lived in this neighborhood I'd never seen police officers with guns drawn in real life before!!!3110 gta vice city

*whimper*3110 gta vice city

Jareth got a great kick out of watching the three police cars, fire truck, fire car, and ambulance yesterday. There were also another two unmarked cars that I saw police officers get out of. Most of these guys parked in front of MY HOUSE before drawing their weapons and moving down the street to one of the neighbors...3110 gta vice city

I still don't know WHY they were doing this, but I was NOT amused. Especially since it was garbage day, and I'd noticed a bag of garbage that Brian had missed when he collected it up the night before. That's how I found out which house they were going to.3110 gta vice city

"Don't mind me officers. I'm just going to pop this bag into the garbage can here on the curb and then ZIP back into my house, grab up my children, and worry-worry-worry until you all pack up and go away! Especially since whatever is going on at my neighbor's house apparently needs THREE officers with their weapons drawn and a few others loitering about for backup..."3110 gta vice city

*gulp*3110 gta vice city

The firemen didn't seem to be needed. They left first. Then the policemen left, one by one and finally the ambulance.3110 gta vice city

Oh yeah. I wanna host a freaking playgroup in MY back yard next month. Suuuuure. 'Cause, you know, it's so SAFE here. People wonder why I'll get in the car and drive to a park for my kids to play when there's one right down the street. That was the park where the SHOOTING happened a couple years back...3110 gta vice city

I wanna move. *whine* I wanna move to some nice, safe, QUIET little neighborhood where the worst thing that ever happens is somebody's dog poops in your flower garden.3110 gta vice city

In other news... my arm hurts. From the elbow to the wrist, my right arm is killing me. It's certain movements that hurt the most, although after doing the grocery shopping today it's been throbbing and having that about-to-cramp up in my hand feeling. Typing doesn't seem to hurt, but I can hardly use my mouse. I think the mouse is the culprit anyway. Either my chair isn't the right height for the desk, or something. I tried getting a mousepad with a wrist-rest thingy on it, but it doesn't seem to be helping. I'm not sure what to do. It just keeps getting worse. I may have to bump my doctor's appointment up and ask him to re-prioritize my ailments... *sigh*3110 gta vice city

Okay, done ranting for now. Time to go cook dinner. Urg.3110 gta vice city

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If Only...

If only it really works.3110 gta vice city

Yesterday, I finally went to see a doctor. It's been a long time coming, as I waited for us to get insurance. Then, the paperwork got screwed up somehow and technically we still don't even have real ID numbers in the system despite the fact that the insurance was supposed to go into effect starting at the beginning of this year. But some nice lady from the company called and gave me an "alternate ID number" with a promise that I could use it and call a specific phone number if I had any questions or problems...3110 gta vice city

So I ransacked the web site, in search of a doctor and picked one from the lot of barely legible names. At least this guy's first name is pronouncable. And he's board certified and studied medicine locally. I still can't pronouce his last name, but hey... he's a doctor. What do I care, so long as he heals me eh?3110 gta vice city

I showed up armed with a list. At the bottom was a small spreadsheet of all the vitamins and supplements I take on a regular basis in order to betterfy my complainy body. At the top, a numbered list of 9 different complaints I want to resolve. In the middle was a list of known "conditions" or things to be aware of. I'm breastfeeding, for one. I've had my gallbladder out. You get the idea.3110 gta vice city

So, now, there's two little vials of my blood floating about in some labs being checked for some of the initial stuff. And two new little prescription bottles in my house. One I'm very familiar with, although the mention that they DON'T KNOW if it's passed on through the breastmilk alarms me, so I'll be taking that in extreme moderation. It's for my Irritable Bowel condition, to help against the raging bouts of debilitating pain and diarreah that I can get. With that drug (brand name is Bentyl) and an Alfalfa supplement, I can make the IBS tolerable. As in maybe one or two of those bouts per week on average. Without either, I used to have two bouts per DAY on average. I'll take the damn pills, thankyouveerymuch! For some odd reason pregnancy temporarily seemed to cure my IBS, but despite my hopes and wishes, it has returned once again.3110 gta vice city

Also in the works is a referral for an Ear Nose Throat doctor. Considering I've seen two other doctors about the "fluid" behind/in my ears, it's about time I get to move onward. The antibiotics I'd gotten from the other doctors made it seem like it went away for a while, but didn't fix the problem in the end. I've been battling ear pain since before Thanksgiving. Bah. The referral should be ready in a week or so, depending on the insurance. So it could be a couple of weeks. But at least it's being worked on. That's something anyway.3110 gta vice city

And then there's the other little pill I got. The one to help me sleep at night. That's right, they've given me sleeping pills! Egads. And, as a result, last night was probably the best night's sleep I've gotten in... Well, frankly it's been a long, long while. I have trouble falling asleep. I have trouble staying asleep. I'll toss and turn until I finally crash and then wake up only to have to toss and turn all over again. And then, by the time the alarm is going off in the morning I have FINALLY fallen asleep properly. It's no wonder I've winged a few alarm clocks across the room, frankly. I'm FAR too familiar with the snooze button for my own good.3110 gta vice city

And, honestly, I've had more energy today. I hope that maybe it's because I actually got a decent night of sleep for once. I hope. I hope, hope, HOPE. Although I loathe the idea that I could end up having to take sleeping pills indefinitely. Let's also hope that this doctor will help me find the solution to WHY I haven't been sleeping well at night too. I've had one too many doctors who are just happy to hand me a prescription and leave it as "fixed". I don't consider a lifelong prescription of sleeping pills to be a cure, frankly. Ugh.3110 gta vice city

However... I did spend all that energy. Damn snow. I shovelled the whole damn driveway and it's snowed enough since that you can hardly even tell. Pfft. If I didn't know that I saved Brian a TON of time tonight by doing it, I would be upset. 3110 gta vice city

And, somehow, a few hours and a couple of Tylenol later, I still have a little spring in my step. Hmm. Sleep is good. At least I think it must be.3110 gta vice city

G'night!3110 gta vice city

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Another one of those catch-up posts...

I've had a few posts coming that I just haven't had the time to come type up lately. I thought about doing one like Brian did, with his "I never" post, but I visited the topic while I read his, and realized that all the first things that came to mind seemed more negative than I really want to dwell on, much less post for all to see. So, meh, nevermind that.3110 gta vice city

Remodeling/repairing work on the basement is going slowly. It's basically still in "demo" mode, which means that things have been coming down but we're nowhere near ready to put anything back up yet. It SO frustrating. I just want it all done already.3110 gta vice city

Kayla seems like maybe she's starting to get a little less clingy, although I still reduce her to tears if I so much as try to leave the room to go to the bathroom. She's getting more vocal, able to communicate a little bit better each week, however, so I'm hoping that will boost her confidence. She had a successful babysitting session with her grandma not long ago that she was supposedly good for! I'm hoping we continue in that direction...3110 gta vice city

The sub-zero cold around here has kinda sucked. I'm not opposed to it getting cold, mind you, as that's when my allergies generally feel at their best. But when it gets cold enough that my car doesn't start.... grrr. The dragon is NOT amused. Brian is having to start my car up every morning to make sure it starts for me later when I need to use it. Again, with the frustrating. Mrrrgh.3110 gta vice city

Meanwhile, I've been banging my head against my monitor as I wrangle graphics and such into submission for use on my jewelry web site. The new stuff isn't up yet, but I may have something soon! I think I've settled on a logo/title graphic at least, and that's a huge hurdle. Now I just want to get the look and feel I want for the site worked out and then start filling in the content. Including a shopping cart. Which is a whole other battle that I need to research to decide how I want to handle that aspect. Right now I suppose I could have people plunk money into my paypal account, but that's not the feel I want. I also don't want to just be another "yahoo" shop either, despite the advertising advantages that would probably give me. I find it ironic that I'm having to research whole other aspects of web design implementation as I'm slowly phasing out of some of the web stuff. Ah, well. Always good to have a fallback plan, right? lol.3110 gta vice city

Anyway, so much else I could toss in here, but I don't want to be up all hours of the night tonight, as I've got stuff in the morning to take Jareth to. There practically isn't a single day this month I don't have something written on the calendar of things to do, whether with the kids or in the evenings. Brian has even already made reservations for us to go out to dinner on Valentine's Day! Brownie points for him! Although we'll be taking the kids with, so it won't be quite as potentially romantic as it might be for other couples. But hey - dinner out! I'll take what I can get these days. It's trickier to schedule in "couple" time when you've got two little munchkins about!3110 gta vice city

Enough for now. Getting sleepy....3110 gta vice city

G'night!3110 gta vice city

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